Yesterday Sissy Boo had a fever. I initially took her temperature — 101.5. A couple of hours later I could tell she felt a little warmer, so I took her temperature again — 101.9. I did all that I could to keep her comfortable and to try and keep the fever down. Cool washcloth to the face and body, hydrating her with liquids and holding her in the comfort of my arms.
Time passed and I could feel that the fever dropped, but as I went to reach for the thermometer, I thought to myself, “why do I need this little machine to tell me what my senses are already telling me?” I could feel when I put my hand on her head that it was cooler than before. I could feel less heat radiating between our two bodies, yet for some reason I didn’t necessarily trust these feelings and needed this little gadget to confirm what I thought I knew. Read more
I started listening to Eckhart Tolle’s Gateways to Now. It’s a book about learning to live in the present moment instead of living in the past or the future, which I and most of us are guilty of doing. In the book Eckhart discusses three ways to live in the present moment, one of which is through the gateway of acceptance.
Accepting whatever may or may not be in front of us in the present moment. Although I wholeheartedly agree with this principle, it’s still so hard for me to grasp and execute. I don’t feel “right” or “myself” simply being. I always have to be doing something, planning something, or making something happen. Read more
I’ve written about letting life lead. Letting go of control. But in the midst of it all I’m still trying to hold onto something. I believe in the power of the Universe, but I’m not ready to fall into its arms with my eyes closed.
My heart knows without a doubt that the Universe will catch me, but my head keeps getting in the way. It’s been a little over a year since we moved to Minnesota. Over 365 days, so now I feel that I need to “make something happen”. In my heart though, I know that I’m supposed to do nothing at all, but work on myself, my heart and my faith in the Universe. Read more
The ego can be a dangerous thing. In the last few decades the ego has taken over our entire society and now most of us use the ego as a guide in all of our decisions. There were many times while I was living in San Francisco that I thought about moving back to Minnesota. My ego, however, told me that others would think that I couldn’t make it out in San Francisco, if I had moved back during those many times. According to my ego I had to wait until I had established a great career and then I would leave that career so that others would know that I came back to Minnesota by choice and not because I had to. Read more
Every morning after my daily meditation, I write whatever comes to my mind. The following is one of my free-writes.
I live a life of abundance and I am grateful for every aspect of it in my life. From money, to food, to family, to friends, to work opportunities. Abundance abounds and my life is forever changed because of it. Read more
One of my recent goals in life is to constantly live in a state of gratitude no matter what is going on in my life. My reasoning behind this goal is that I know in my heart and soul that I am so lucky for everything that I have in my life.
One of the greatest blessings in my life is my little family. Both Nic and I come from broken homes. His happened in childhood and although my parents didn’t officially divorce until I was in college there were always issues throughout the years and my siblings and I experienced things that I don’t believe any child should have to go through. Read more
Yesterday I came across an article that stated that famous radio host Delilah’s 18-year-old son recently committed suicide. I felt horrible thinking of what Delilah must be going through — a mother’s worst nightmare. I also thought about the number of suicides I’ve heard of just within this year. Like mass shootings it seems like suicides are also on the rise. Otherwise we’re just hearing about them more.
After reading the headline and some of the article I thought to myself, “Am I just going to feel bad and go on with the rest of my life?” This is also how I feel about mass shootings. We’ve become so immune to these incidences. What can we do to change them? I believe these are little wake-up calls for our society as a whole. Read more
It’s 2017 and we now have phones that can recognize our faces. This is no doubt an amazing advancement and a marker on how technology has progressed.
However, it’s 2017 and we still have children who worry and wonder where they are going to get their next meal. Read more
Having control is so overrated. For the most part of my life, however, it was the one thing that I felt set me apart from others. It was the one thing that I tried so dearly to hold onto. Controlling my career, controlling my marriage, controlling my children, controlling my emotions, there was so much to keep track of that at the end I was nowhere near having control of anything. Read more
When I was 24, I started to worry about whether or not I would ever get married. I knew I wanted to be mom one day, and I knew I’d have to date the guy for a year or more before I’d be willing to tie the knot. For almost three years, I had been single. Although I tried to be optimistic, the thought of a long-term relationship seemed like a fantasy. Most of my girlfriends that I had gone to high-school with were married and starting families. Here I was barely even able to get a date. Read more