It was safer for me to write about conscious and healthy eating and sustainable living. Those topics are hot right now and don’t require too much from me.
They don’t require me to search deep within myself, to question the scars I’ve been hiding and to admit that I have no freaking clue what I’m doing. But I can no longer write like that. Sure, some issues related to those topics may show up from time to time because they pull at my heartstrings, but for the most part, from now on I want to focus on the core of who I am or who I’m striving to be.
It’s uncomfortable. It’s much easier to be superficial. To create listicles. To do a book review. But those things don’t move me, they don’t make me want to go outside and shout about what I just wrote to the entire world. They don’t help me to feel connected to myself and to others.
This is my therapy. It may seem like I’m doing it for you, but I’m really doing it for me. It is scary. Sometimes I cover my eyes as I hit the “Publish” button with disbelief about what I’m actually sharing. But the world doesn’t end and I get a rush every time I do it and then I can’t wait to do it again.
Most of us want to connect, but not too much. We want to learn more, but only if it doesn’t require much from us. We want to have it all, but we won’t risk it all to try.
Let’s put away the filters, talk about the childhood issues that still scar us, shine a light onto our flaws and share our deepest fears. Let’s be authentic, be real and really connect.
In the words of Brené Brown:
“Authenticity is not something we have or don’t have. It’s a practice — a conscious choice of how we want to live. Authenticity is a collection of choices that we have to make every day. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.”
Will you choose authenticity today?